Short Story

imageExiting the plane that soared her to where she belonged. She was in a black car in a busy city, driving down streets her eyes have never been exposed to. All he desired was her, and it was beautiful. Life-long dreams ended; regardless of the years the two of them had to ponder. This is a reality now.

“Where have you been my entire life?”

But she would never ask him, for she was so scared with smiles; to experience the beginning, of what could be the rest of her life.

He had hands that doubled hers in size, and arms that cradled her to life, she thinks “This is what I’ve been waiting for, finally I feel alive.”

She was broken, weak, and tired of loving and failing. How did he make it so easy?

He touches her face, and she feels she can fly.

Sitting 5 feet from her- but they both have to remain seated, the urge to feel your skin is so compelling.

“There you are, I’ve been looking for you.”




You aren’t born with character, it’s built.

Struggling with self-worth, purpose, and reasoning to your existence in your early twenties is inevitable.

For a portion of life, we are formed mentally and physically by our surroundings. We have morals ingrained in us our parents have taught us, and regardless of what they might be, these morals are part of who we become. Unique is a kind word and it is exactly what it sounds like.

1 each site is unique: distinctive, distinct, individual, special, idiosyncratic; single, sole, lone, unrepeated, repeatable, solitary, exclusive, rare, uncommon, unusual, sui generis; informal one-off, one-of-a-kind, once-in-a-lifetime, one-shot.

Although I was taught so much as a child, I still became everything my parents told me not to be.

So some of us went away to college, or just moved away. Many have had children, and  families and that itself establishes a sense of purpose, drive, belonging, and self-worth. But what about those who don’t have a sense of belonging? Well, it destroys you. As humans, we are created to interact. And as women, we have a nurturing pride built into us. As you are reaching so deeply outside of yourself for greater meaning: realize that you already have it!

This morning when you reached for your daily medication, or took your dog outside: these small things give your life meaning. Going to work, or the doctor, is not meaning but rather means to a purposeful life. These things fall hand in hand with self-care. All in time you will start to establish drive for your unique characteristics; and this is when you discover the person you are when no-one is around to watch. Own your daily routine and make it yours, after all no one is you!

My small testament to this is loosing everything worth financial value and being forced to look in the mirror at myself. Do you like what you see when you meet with your own eyes? If not, I can assure you the money, the car you’ve been watching, or that new lace halter from Victoria’s Secret is not going to fix this infested desire internally, for happiness. Rather the cup of coffee sitting on the table, standing in the pouring rain, or the sun hitting your desk as you’re blogging, maybe your dog falling asleep right beside you. These small things are happiness, purpose, and simply divine.


What does this mean? Simple: if you are a cardiologist pulling $450k a year, that is amazing! If you have zero gratitude for the free gifts given from birth, you have no sense of grounding and that does not make for a fulfilling, purposeful life.

Be Unique




What Life Has Offered Me at 21

Have you ever sat in the rain and watched it drop on your thighs as you ponder your life? Perhaps, your happy place is with your toes in the sand on the Southern East Coast. Sometimes, I stand on the peak of mountains and feel I have conquered my life when in reality; there is no end goal. I am reaching out with my arms in the sky for something greater than myself. Do you have a passion expressed through your own personal, unique, humanized qualities?

I tremble. For it is my time to live my life as mine. With this comes decision, change, discipline, consistency, time, patience, and me. I cannot become this strong-willed woman without having a strong-willed heart, mind, body, & soul. My energy is expressed in waves- sadness, accomplishment, rejection, incompetence, beauty, lust, loss, memory- Yearning to be a blank canvas, rebuilding sense of home and satisfaction. Have you ever found beauty in the things that do not need human assistance to be beautiful? Flowers, or the wide ocean from green to deep blue. This life is not based on moral, but meaning.

How to move forward without your roots, what does this mean. If you do not have a sense of home for your mind, then mental growth is never rooted.

Personal choice is the only way.


“It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you
Everything I do
I’ll tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you wanna do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It’s better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby, now you do”