Some will refuse to admit their flaws in the tragic events they’ve come across. Life is slowly but surely a progression of self-love and self-encouragement. Being a co-dependent female; finding shame in myself for the situations I’ve been in, that I had zero control over. We place ourselves in scenarios for 1 of 2 of 3 and maybe even 4 reasons.
Serotonin release has been my flaw (and no I’m not talking about taking molly or tripping on a pill)- happiness, sudden and fast satisfaction- and this movement has not been the best for me. Instant gratification is not the way. Success, wanting to build a future whether financially or lifestyle choices made to drive yourself to a virtuous destiny. As humans, we make choices because of a beneficial outcome, and unfortunately, the conclusion is not always our intentions.
When she was walking into an apartment building, on New Year’s Eve, to have a good time with a friend of course; she didn’t ask to be thrown into the bushes and raped by a strange man. When he was simply standing with his daughter at the fair, he didn’t ask to lose sight of her and never see her again as she was taken from him. When he took those pain pills because of a long-term back injury- he didn’t ask for them to kill him while his family was steps away. Regrettably, sometimes the things we do as humans for good purpose harm instead of providing us with the product we strive for. And suddenly, we are changed. Forever. Wounded. Scarred. And these terrible experiences become a part of our being.
So today I am asking you,
What is leading you?
Are you being lead by your spirit or your wound?
“There is a place
like no place on earth.
And a land full of wonder, mystery
Some say to survive it: you have to be as Mad as a Hatter.
Luckily I am.”
Traveling, moving, new streets, new pages, highways, grocery stores, restaurants. This Earth is my home, I am moved by the spirit’s energy constantly surrounding me. I have become the woman …
Source: Where you stand, Is not who you are.
Traveling, moving, new streets, new pages, highways, grocery stores, restaurants.
This Earth is my home, I am moved by the spirit’s energy constantly surrounding me.
I have become the woman I am because of the beautiful, painful, rich, dirty, broken, reviving experiences I have been gifted with. I have given these experiences to myself. I am rich in memory, I am poor in paper. I am beautiful, but I am absolutely damaged. My heart is full and willing, and my body is healthy and stable. Virgo, the moon- surround me daily. My energy is powerful, but only for me. I am living; to see. Not to stay. I will always remember everything, every drive, every hike, every walk down Dickson in Fayetteville to Providence Rd. In Charlotte.
I have lost so much in my life;
but with chance and a fighting soul-
I have gained and immense amount.
I am willing to learn; willing to be wrong; willing to teach; & willing to love.
Pain doesn’t have to correlate with memories.
Fly. Be Free. Take your experiences and soar. This earth is home; you are not bound anywhere.
Be you; Find you; Experiences will show you.
Finally, I’m going to do it.
I get lost in the forest on a mountain top with my 4 legged baby,
we see the sun, sky, trees, & the elevation we are so proud to stand upon.
Both leaping forward but once we reach a cliff;
The reward is a gift only those fortunate enough can see,
we are here because we woke up with purpose.
I belong to the earth.
I am in love with the ground, the sky.
She swam through a fire that placed her in a new standing.
The colors are so bright and the leaves ever so emerald.
She takes a step forward but continues to step back.
Where is home?
This place I have come to is not a stepping stone but a residence.
In her world, dogs can speak instead of barking- and the rain drops to simply dance on her skin.
She effortlessly sees all things with purpose, right from her bare green eyes.
“The sounds will continue, you must make sense of them.”