Some will refuse to admit their flaws in the tragic events they’ve come across. Life is slowly but surely a progression of self-love and self-encouragement. Being a co-dependent female; finding shame in myself for the situations I’ve been in, that I had zero control over. We place ourselves in scenarios for 1 of 2 of 3 and maybe even 4 reasons.
Serotonin release has been my flaw (and no I’m not talking about taking molly or tripping on a pill)- happiness, sudden and fast satisfaction- and this movement has not been the best for me. Instant gratification is not the way. Success, wanting to build a future whether financially or lifestyle choices made to drive yourself to a virtuous destiny. As humans, we make choices because of a beneficial outcome, and unfortunately, the conclusion is not always our intentions.
When she was walking into an apartment building, on New Year’s Eve, to have a good time with a friend of course; she didn’t ask to be thrown into the bushes and raped by a strange man. When he was simply standing with his daughter at the fair, he didn’t ask to lose sight of her and never see her again as she was taken from him. When he took those pain pills because of a long-term back injury- he didn’t ask for them to kill him while his family was steps away. Regrettably, sometimes the things we do as humans for good purpose harm instead of providing us with the product we strive for. And suddenly, we are changed. Forever. Wounded. Scarred. And these terrible experiences become a part of our being.
So today I am asking you,
What is leading you?
Are you being lead by your spirit or your wound?